[Despite frequently finding himself shunted into the spotlight, Nishi prefers sticking to the walls, only perceived when he wishes to be. Silly little games are only fun when he's hosting them, or when the stakes are high enough to pique his interest. In the case of Fandaniel's offer... well. He's listening.
Nishi sits back, kicking one leg over the other.]
If you're so eager to die, then it won't matter how long you know me or how much of me you know. By all means, let's play.
[They can occupy each other until death do they part.]
[ He will deny Nishi his answer a moment longer, but only a moment. He comes to sit on the bar stool next to him and plucks a used glass from the bartop nearby. With a half-full bottle still in hand, it'll be Nishi that he waggles it at, raising his eyebrows expectantly.
If he must satisfy the man's curiosity, he shall drink while doing so. ]
Who, Nishi, do you believe should hold power over others? Perhaps a deep question for a man so similarly deep in his cups, but I am terribly curious.
[As much as he'd like to front, Nishi is a sip away from blacking out and dying to an untimely concussion, so he'll drink in the sight of Fandenial nursing his wine instead.
It's a good thing the answer to that question comes to him naturally, as if an indelible truth his heart intrinsically knows. Nishi cants his head to one side, studying Fandaniel behind the mask.]
Power should rest with those willing to shoulder its burden. The ones who can lead others forward, not simply bask in privilege and wealth. Power is not the gift people think it is.
[Nor should it be thought of as such. It's a curse to bear, not a blessing, a pain that must be endured so that others can thrive.]
[ It's like an indirect kiss, wow~, but Fandaniel shall simply shrug and sip at the wine as he listens. Now, this would be when it was Nishi's turn to ask a question, but it would appear he has a part two for this one. ]
Of course. Now, what do you believe should be done to those who fail to lead those others forward?
[Nishi doesn't flinch at the weight of the question. If anything, he seems to settle more comfortably into it, like a man who has spent his entire life considering nothing else. His eyes, sharp even behind the mask, don't waver from Fandaniel.]
Those who fail in their duty to lead shouldn't cling to power. If they can't rise to the task, they must step aside— or be removed.
[Oh! Oh!! His turn! Pretend that he didn't forget the premise of this game and space out between questions.]
And you?
[What? It's a valid question. Don't make him think too hard.]
[ What indeed. He's quiet for a time as he ponders, drinking wine as his gaze unfocuses and stares past Nishi, as though he's not even there. A minute passes, two, and finally, ]
Once, I saw an empire bowing and breaking from its own pointless self-indulgence, a ship of rotten wood tossing and turning on a sea of fools, lost, directionless. All those who could trace their lineage back to our founding emperor... slothful, self-serving, uninnovative, dullards. They would squander our power, our greatness. It pained me so.
[Fascinating. To think they might share some common thread in how they view power is... not entirely unbelievable. After all, ordinary people always suffer under the ambitions of the few at the top. Resentment takes root easily when a lopsided power dynamic stretches on.
Fandaniel is clearly someone who cares — or once cared — about the place he came from. Could he have been a competent soldier? Perhaps Nishi would have known at some point, his uniform a testament to rank, but now he can only rely on his intuition.
That intuition suggests that Fandaniel might be a liability at best, a ticking time bomb at worst. How does he figure? Don't worry about it.]
Power inherited without purpose is worthless. Those who rely on privilege alone will inevitably crumble.
[Skipping past Fandaniel's turn, Nishi leans into his space.]
[ Fandaniel is nothing if not unpredictable. Some might say otherwise with how garish and overdramatic he is, but how true is all of that, in the end? Ask and he's liable to laugh. Insufferable, but undoubtedly dangerous. This, though? This he will offer candidly for once. ]
It is, isn't it?
[ He does not mind Nishi entering his space. He'll even move his wine down towards his lap to avoid the chance of him knocking into it and spilling yet more wine across his already damp, sweet-smelling clothes. ]
Why, I did what I thought best, and supposedly as the empire's most brilliant mind, I assumed it... would be enough.
[ Here, he sounds as though he doubts himself. ]
For a time, it was. I brought him back, our first emperor. My dear Xande. [ And there, a note of sadness, however faint, around that name. ] He spurred us forth again, rallying our spirit, our very soul, and expanding our territory with gusto. It was as if he breathed new life into us, and yet. And yet. It was not enough to save him. Even as the empire shone like the jewel it was meant to be, he was troubled by thoughts of his previous death. He could not shake it, having died once before, how... useless his life had been. How little it had mattered. That I had to bring him back to salvage his life's work.
In the end, I could not make him care for life, nor for the empire, once more. Power inherited without purpose is worthless, true, but even power in the hands of the worthy has its limits. In the end, all I had done was usher us into the final days of Allag.
[He would be hard pressed to do little more than condemn Fandaniel, hearing how honestly he speaks. Taking a life should never be easy, and by the same token, dragging someone back from death is perilous in its own right. It turned out to be a mistake, but at the time... would Fandaniel have pursued it if he had known how it would end?
The mask gives little away, but Fandaniel may feel the weight of Nishi's gaze regardless, along with the heavy silence that follows his admission.
How Nishi feels about it is... complicated. Maybe if he remembered the whole of his life, more than the jagged pains and that fathomless emptiness carved out by too many mistakes, he would have the words to reach this man. For now, he only has this, spoken honestly and without guile—]
I don't envy the burden your emperor carried. Living once is surely enough. He bore that weight dutifully, I'm sure... but everyone has their limit.
[There is no condemnation in his answer. Only the recognition of loss heavy enough to be felt even in words alone.]
You must have cared deeply for him. I'm sorry for your loss.
[Not just once, but twice. Fandaniel can be wrong and have been wronged, but that's what it is to be human.]
[ There's a soft huff, not quite a laugh, and he lifts the wineglass to his lips to finish off what remains in one fell swoop. ]
More deeply than anyone before, and never again after.
[ It's difficult to thank Nishi for his sympathy. It feels wrong. Fandaniel wears it poorly, like it cannot possibly be meant for a creature such as himself. Thus, he simply inclines his head, trusting himself not to say anything short of offensive in return. ]
Ah, but here I am rambling as though thoroughly sauced when I've barely drunk a glass at all. Shall we move on?
[—and never again after. The words hit too close. Some wounds follow a man forever, refusing to fade no matter how many years or lives he puts between himself and their origin.
The bitter amusement of sharing more common ground with Fandaniel than expected doesn't even inspire a laugh. He can't blame wine for dulling his edge— he and Fandaniel both wear sympathy poorly, and what little passes between them is gone in the space of a breath. Better, perhaps, to pretend as if baring old wounds doesn't sting afresh.]
Of course. We'll keep it simple.
[As if. His habit of pressing where it hurts will not be denied.]
[ What does he wish for? Haha, well, he won't laugh, but his smile lessens a hint. It doesn't leave, oh no, rarely will it ever, but... ]
Xande wished for oblivion, and so that is what I, too, wish for.
[ An end. It's all he's ever wanted. Finally, finally, to be reduced to nothing. However, Fandaniel is the one who isn't drunk; he knows he let Nishi double up on his questions. Fair enough, as he'd done the same. Now they can be back on even terms.
Empty wineglass set aside, he reaches out for Nishi's face instead. If allowed, he'll brush gloved fingers across the man's cheek and then settle them on the edge of his mask.
There's no attempt to remove it, though. ]
Why do you wear this? I saw you when you took it off, at the trial. All you are hiding is a beautiful face.
[The answer is one Nishi had already guessed: to follow the one who mattered most into the grave. There's no judgment here, no condemnation. He understands too well. A loss like that hollows a man forever, no matter how many lives he leads in the aftermath of it.
Perhaps it's unfortunate, then, that he does understand. If he didn't, he might try to coax Fandaniel toward something else to live for. But understanding means he can't lie. He knows exactly what it is to wish for the end.
He doesn't flinch when Fandaniel's hand comes near, doesn't pull away when the fingers graze his cheek and rest on the edge of his mask. Whether that's trust or something else, he isn't sure. All he knows is that he won't stop him should he move to remove it. After all, it's easier to speak truth when two men can look one another in the eye, soul to soul, much as they might otherwise be disinclined to.]
You think so? I suspect... there's far more history etched into this mask than I can clearly recall. I felt it was needed... to become the person people expected me to be.
[People need someone to rally behind— a strong figure, unflappable and impervious. If they ever saw what lay beneath, he doubts they would've thought half as highly of him.]
[ And remove it he does. It's a strange desire, to want to gaze upon Nishi's face without such a barrier between them. He would not normally care as to what someone did or didn't wear, mask or no mask, but here, it feels intimate. As if this is a sight only for him. What an odd want.
To want anything at all besides the death he seeks so rabidly, and for it to be something as simple as the sight of a face? ]
A symbol steeped in history and expectations, much like a crown sat upon your head. You need not wear a crown for me, Nishi, though I wonder... Are you perhaps meant to be my prince?
[ A prince and their princess, a groom and their bride; whatever foolishness this place is forcing upon them. ]
[What excuse does he have for the heat on his cheeks? The alcohol? The strange nakedness he feels without his mask hiding half his face? Or, more likely, the gaze fixed on him now, sharp as needles, precise enough to sting and leave him vaguely aching.
Nishi has also started to wonder what this place intends for the two of them— what kind of cruel joke or binding thread it means to weave from their connection, one that persists even after their less than stellar first impressions. Canting his head to one side, Nishi observes him in pointed silence, sharp as needles.]
How long were you lost, drifting in that crystalline world? Were you waiting alone for a prince to find you and steal you away from your fate?
[And how long would he have waited? Years? Centuries? How long does a soul yearn to be freed before it gives in and breaks?]
[ What did he give up from that time? He searches his memories, seeking some idea, some concept, as to what he's paid to be here. He awaited them, the arrival of the hero and their companions, praying to put a stop to—
A shiver runs through him, visibly so, and he closes his eyes briefly, freeing Nishi from his intense stare for only a moment. He breathes in, then out, and then his grey eyes open again. He sets the mark aside on the bar to ensure there's no chance of it tumbling from his fingers. ]
I am... unsure. I recall dying and sinking down into it to wait. I still had something to do, and refused to be washed away into its depths.
Mm. So, at that time, you weren't prepared to let go.
[Work left undone. Something left to do. Nishi wonders, then— was his own death like that? Did he have unfinished business, or had it been a deliberate choice?
If he trusts his gut, he imagines he died with every intention of burning in hell afterward. Perhaps even dragging someone else with him, desperate to perish but not perish alone.
He doesn't offer any salve for Fandaniel's anxieties; that isn't in him. Instead, he refills his glass and presses it insistently toward the other's fingers, a wordless go on.]
...But that's not the case now, is it? But there must be some reason why you haven't simply ended your own life.
Ah, it would seem he may be matching Nishi on his drunken level soon enough, perhaps in another glass or two. How atrocious, and yet the thought is not enough to stop him. The blankness of memory bothers him now that he's realized where it is; it is like tonguing an empty spot in the gum, where a tooth has been freshly yanked, or picking at a scab, ensuring it scars rather than heals. ]
Do you know? I did try. I sought out Sika Madu and slit my own throat before them. Perhaps I meant to spite them and their Father, but it would appear that is now allowed, for here I am, still alive, neck untouched.
[ Yikes, man, yikes. ]
But no. I feel you are correct. Did I fail? Did I not defeat my star's vaunted hero? Then I must have chosen this route to try again. To damn them all with me after the fact.
[A cold, almost clinical response, maybe, but Nishi is listening without judgment. Those who have lived comparatively normal lives would hear what Fandaniel has done, what he's willing to do to himself, and balk. They'd want to judge, to condemn, but even the devil is not so unsympathetic a figure.
So Nishi reaches out, his fingers ghosting along his neck where a nasty scar ought to be. No peace, not even in death... What a frightening commonality.]
You're like a bird trapped in its cage, kept in some dark corner. That's a shame. Someone ought to set you free.
[His fingers press into Fandaniel's neck just enough to feel the pulse that skips beneath his skin.]
[ Only it doesn't skip. Nishi will find the pulse barely there, almost non-existent. It shouldn't be that way. It isn't healthy, it isn't natural, and Fandaniel is well aware of that fact, but he won't push the hand away. No, he'll put the glass down and take that hand instead, pressing it harder against his throat, pushing the fingers so that they wrap around it instead. ]
A cage that can only be opened by a true death, not whatever farce is being played here. Will it be you who does it? Will it be you who kills me at long last, so that I can never return?
[ It feels more like a request than a question. He... wants this, he realizes. This is how it should be. This man, destined to finish his sorry existence after all this time, one who will not balk or cry over him like so many others might.
It almost feels romantic. Maybe it even is. With how much he desires an end, how easily it is to mix the two, to desire the one he wants to kill him so. ]
[It feels like he's being given no choice— a position that feels intimately familiar, only Fandaniel has no shame in impressing his needs upon him.
A crooked smile lifts the corner of his lips. Laughter follows, the kind Nishi can only aim at himself, finding this own role in this comical. How many people could Fandaniel ask this of? How many people would fail to take him seriously, and how many more would quail at the idea of snuffing the life out of him?
For a long while, Nishi's fingers remain still against Fandaniel's neck. Seconds bleed into minutes, his request contemplated in earnest. The look on Nishi's face is imperceptible, his eyes unblinking where they stare deeply into Fandaniel's.]
You really are an audacious man... but don't mistake me for someone generous. At the very least, I would expect you to make it worth the trouble.
[ Fandaniel is content to remain silent as Nishi considers the offer; it would be what the man had seemed to hope for before, no? To be the one who killed him. To bury him in a grave. And here he was, offering it to him, but he felt no need to push or insist. A smirk plays across his lips when Nishi finally speaks, eyes narrowing with a hint of amusement, or is it even a hint? When he always seems so damn amused already?
He'll idly brush his fingers over the hand at his throat, a gentle, lingering touch. ]
I would expect nothing less. To only take from you would make for a very poor partnership. You need only ask. Tell me what you want. I will not deny you.
[With that established, Nishi's hand falls away from Fandaniel's throat, a wry grin on his lips when he denies him what he wants. If Fandaniel can endure everything Nishi is going to put him through, he will eventually earn his reward... but there may be a little choking as a treat somewhere down the line. It all depends on how Fandaniel plays his cards.
Nishi leans back, cheek resting against his fist. He's looking Fandaniel up and down for reasons that will become clear shortly—]
Good. Then you should have no problem waiting on me hand and foot until your number is up. To start with, you'll need to look the part.
[That's the approach. He'll gradually up the ante until Fandaniel realizes it's not worth it to court death by Nishi's hands, until he gets fed up and forces someone else to visit sweet death upon him. Shouldn't be too hard.]
[ Oh, look the part? There's a laugh, though an honest one rather than some high-pitched, deranged monstrosity. Nishi is about to find out how difficult Fandaniel is to get rid of. His previous lord had been far more dangerous than this man and had threatened and threatened, and yet! ]
I can assure you, I look excellent in a butler's suit if that is your desire.
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[Despite frequently finding himself shunted into the spotlight, Nishi prefers sticking to the walls, only perceived when he wishes to be. Silly little games are only fun when he's hosting them, or when the stakes are high enough to pique his interest. In the case of Fandaniel's offer... well. He's listening.
Nishi sits back, kicking one leg over the other.]
If you're so eager to die, then it won't matter how long you know me or how much of me you know. By all means, let's play.
[They can occupy each other until death do they part.]
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[ He will deny Nishi his answer a moment longer, but only a moment. He comes to sit on the bar stool next to him and plucks a used glass from the bartop nearby. With a half-full bottle still in hand, it'll be Nishi that he waggles it at, raising his eyebrows expectantly.
If he must satisfy the man's curiosity, he shall drink while doing so. ]
Who, Nishi, do you believe should hold power over others? Perhaps a deep question for a man so similarly deep in his cups, but I am terribly curious.
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It's a good thing the answer to that question comes to him naturally, as if an indelible truth his heart intrinsically knows. Nishi cants his head to one side, studying Fandaniel behind the mask.]
Power should rest with those willing to shoulder its burden. The ones who can lead others forward, not simply bask in privilege and wealth. Power is not the gift people think it is.
[Nor should it be thought of as such. It's a curse to bear, not a blessing, a pain that must be endured so that others can thrive.]
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Of course. Now, what do you believe should be done to those who fail to lead those others forward?
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Those who fail in their duty to lead shouldn't cling to power. If they can't rise to the task, they must step aside— or be removed.
[Oh! Oh!! His turn! Pretend that he didn't forget the premise of this game and space out between questions.]
And you?
[What? It's a valid question. Don't make him think too hard.]
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[ What indeed. He's quiet for a time as he ponders, drinking wine as his gaze unfocuses and stares past Nishi, as though he's not even there. A minute passes, two, and finally, ]
Once, I saw an empire bowing and breaking from its own pointless self-indulgence, a ship of rotten wood tossing and turning on a sea of fools, lost, directionless. All those who could trace their lineage back to our founding emperor... slothful, self-serving, uninnovative, dullards. They would squander our power, our greatness. It pained me so.
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Fandaniel is clearly someone who cares — or once cared — about the place he came from. Could he have been a competent soldier? Perhaps Nishi would have known at some point, his uniform a testament to rank, but now he can only rely on his intuition.
That intuition suggests that Fandaniel might be a liability at best, a ticking time bomb at worst. How does he figure? Don't worry about it.]
Power inherited without purpose is worthless. Those who rely on privilege alone will inevitably crumble.
[Skipping past Fandaniel's turn, Nishi leans into his space.]
So... what did you do about it?
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It is, isn't it?
[ He does not mind Nishi entering his space. He'll even move his wine down towards his lap to avoid the chance of him knocking into it and spilling yet more wine across his already damp, sweet-smelling clothes. ]
Why, I did what I thought best, and supposedly as the empire's most brilliant mind, I assumed it... would be enough.
[ Here, he sounds as though he doubts himself. ]
For a time, it was. I brought him back, our first emperor. My dear Xande. [ And there, a note of sadness, however faint, around that name. ] He spurred us forth again, rallying our spirit, our very soul, and expanding our territory with gusto. It was as if he breathed new life into us, and yet. And yet. It was not enough to save him. Even as the empire shone like the jewel it was meant to be, he was troubled by thoughts of his previous death. He could not shake it, having died once before, how... useless his life had been. How little it had mattered. That I had to bring him back to salvage his life's work.
In the end, I could not make him care for life, nor for the empire, once more. Power inherited without purpose is worthless, true, but even power in the hands of the worthy has its limits. In the end, all I had done was usher us into the final days of Allag.
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The mask gives little away, but Fandaniel may feel the weight of Nishi's gaze regardless, along with the heavy silence that follows his admission.
How Nishi feels about it is... complicated. Maybe if he remembered the whole of his life, more than the jagged pains and that fathomless emptiness carved out by too many mistakes, he would have the words to reach this man. For now, he only has this, spoken honestly and without guile—]
I don't envy the burden your emperor carried. Living once is surely enough. He bore that weight dutifully, I'm sure... but everyone has their limit.
[There is no condemnation in his answer. Only the recognition of loss heavy enough to be felt even in words alone.]
You must have cared deeply for him. I'm sorry for your loss.
[Not just once, but twice. Fandaniel can be wrong and have been wronged, but that's what it is to be human.]
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More deeply than anyone before, and never again after.
[ It's difficult to thank Nishi for his sympathy. It feels wrong. Fandaniel wears it poorly, like it cannot possibly be meant for a creature such as himself. Thus, he simply inclines his head, trusting himself not to say anything short of offensive in return. ]
Ah, but here I am rambling as though thoroughly sauced when I've barely drunk a glass at all. Shall we move on?
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The bitter amusement of sharing more common ground with Fandaniel than expected doesn't even inspire a laugh. He can't blame wine for dulling his edge— he and Fandaniel both wear sympathy poorly, and what little passes between them is gone in the space of a breath. Better, perhaps, to pretend as if baring old wounds doesn't sting afresh.]
Of course. We'll keep it simple.
[As if. His habit of pressing where it hurts will not be denied.]
What do you wish for?
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Xande wished for oblivion, and so that is what I, too, wish for.
[ An end. It's all he's ever wanted. Finally, finally, to be reduced to nothing. However, Fandaniel is the one who isn't drunk; he knows he let Nishi double up on his questions. Fair enough, as he'd done the same. Now they can be back on even terms.
Empty wineglass set aside, he reaches out for Nishi's face instead. If allowed, he'll brush gloved fingers across the man's cheek and then settle them on the edge of his mask.
There's no attempt to remove it, though. ]
Why do you wear this? I saw you when you took it off, at the trial. All you are hiding is a beautiful face.
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Perhaps it's unfortunate, then, that he does understand. If he didn't, he might try to coax Fandaniel toward something else to live for. But understanding means he can't lie. He knows exactly what it is to wish for the end.
He doesn't flinch when Fandaniel's hand comes near, doesn't pull away when the fingers graze his cheek and rest on the edge of his mask. Whether that's trust or something else, he isn't sure. All he knows is that he won't stop him should he move to remove it. After all, it's easier to speak truth when two men can look one another in the eye, soul to soul, much as they might otherwise be disinclined to.]
You think so? I suspect... there's far more history etched into this mask than I can clearly recall. I felt it was needed... to become the person people expected me to be.
[People need someone to rally behind— a strong figure, unflappable and impervious. If they ever saw what lay beneath, he doubts they would've thought half as highly of him.]
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To want anything at all besides the death he seeks so rabidly, and for it to be something as simple as the sight of a face? ]
A symbol steeped in history and expectations, much like a crown sat upon your head. You need not wear a crown for me, Nishi, though I wonder... Are you perhaps meant to be my prince?
[ A prince and their princess, a groom and their bride; whatever foolishness this place is forcing upon them. ]
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Nishi has also started to wonder what this place intends for the two of them— what kind of cruel joke or binding thread it means to weave from their connection, one that persists even after their less than stellar first impressions. Canting his head to one side, Nishi observes him in pointed silence, sharp as needles.]
How long were you lost, drifting in that crystalline world? Were you waiting alone for a prince to find you and steal you away from your fate?
[And how long would he have waited? Years? Centuries? How long does a soul yearn to be freed before it gives in and breaks?]
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[ What did he give up from that time? He searches his memories, seeking some idea, some concept, as to what he's paid to be here. He awaited them, the arrival of the hero and their companions, praying to put a stop to—
A shiver runs through him, visibly so, and he closes his eyes briefly, freeing Nishi from his intense stare for only a moment. He breathes in, then out, and then his grey eyes open again. He sets the mark aside on the bar to ensure there's no chance of it tumbling from his fingers. ]
I am... unsure. I recall dying and sinking down into it to wait. I still had something to do, and refused to be washed away into its depths.
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[Work left undone. Something left to do. Nishi wonders, then— was his own death like that? Did he have unfinished business, or had it been a deliberate choice?
If he trusts his gut, he imagines he died with every intention of burning in hell afterward. Perhaps even dragging someone else with him, desperate to perish but not perish alone.
He doesn't offer any salve for Fandaniel's anxieties; that isn't in him. Instead, he refills his glass and presses it insistently toward the other's fingers, a wordless go on.]
...But that's not the case now, is it? But there must be some reason why you haven't simply ended your own life.
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Ah, it would seem he may be matching Nishi on his drunken level soon enough, perhaps in another glass or two. How atrocious, and yet the thought is not enough to stop him. The blankness of memory bothers him now that he's realized where it is; it is like tonguing an empty spot in the gum, where a tooth has been freshly yanked, or picking at a scab, ensuring it scars rather than heals. ]
Do you know? I did try. I sought out Sika Madu and slit my own throat before them. Perhaps I meant to spite them and their Father, but it would appear that is now allowed, for here I am, still alive, neck untouched.
[ Yikes, man, yikes. ]
But no. I feel you are correct. Did I fail? Did I not defeat my star's vaunted hero? Then I must have chosen this route to try again. To damn them all with me after the fact.
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[A cold, almost clinical response, maybe, but Nishi is listening without judgment. Those who have lived comparatively normal lives would hear what Fandaniel has done, what he's willing to do to himself, and balk. They'd want to judge, to condemn, but even the devil is not so unsympathetic a figure.
So Nishi reaches out, his fingers ghosting along his neck where a nasty scar ought to be. No peace, not even in death... What a frightening commonality.]
You're like a bird trapped in its cage, kept in some dark corner. That's a shame. Someone ought to set you free.
[His fingers press into Fandaniel's neck just enough to feel the pulse that skips beneath his skin.]
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A cage that can only be opened by a true death, not whatever farce is being played here. Will it be you who does it? Will it be you who kills me at long last, so that I can never return?
[ It feels more like a request than a question. He... wants this, he realizes. This is how it should be. This man, destined to finish his sorry existence after all this time, one who will not balk or cry over him like so many others might.
It almost feels romantic. Maybe it even is. With how much he desires an end, how easily it is to mix the two, to desire the one he wants to kill him so. ]
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A crooked smile lifts the corner of his lips. Laughter follows, the kind Nishi can only aim at himself, finding this own role in this comical. How many people could Fandaniel ask this of? How many people would fail to take him seriously, and how many more would quail at the idea of snuffing the life out of him?
For a long while, Nishi's fingers remain still against Fandaniel's neck. Seconds bleed into minutes, his request contemplated in earnest. The look on Nishi's face is imperceptible, his eyes unblinking where they stare deeply into Fandaniel's.]
You really are an audacious man... but don't mistake me for someone generous. At the very least, I would expect you to make it worth the trouble.
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He'll idly brush his fingers over the hand at his throat, a gentle, lingering touch. ]
I would expect nothing less. To only take from you would make for a very poor partnership. You need only ask. Tell me what you want. I will not deny you.
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Nishi leans back, cheek resting against his fist. He's looking Fandaniel up and down for reasons that will become clear shortly—]
Good. Then you should have no problem waiting on me hand and foot until your number is up. To start with, you'll need to look the part.
[That's the approach. He'll gradually up the ante until Fandaniel realizes it's not worth it to court death by Nishi's hands, until he gets fed up and forces someone else to visit sweet death upon him. Shouldn't be too hard.]
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I can assure you, I look excellent in a butler's suit if that is your desire.
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[Nishi's laugh is a decidedly mean one. He's sure Fandaniel cleans up well, but he's looking for something dirtier.]
I was thinking a maid's dress— French style, of course.
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