He takes a slow breath in, and then his shoulders slump properly. He wants to brag and boast that he's not, that he's not afraid of anything, but in truth--]
... It does. It... struck me that this blade is very real. I'm aware you're very skilled, of course! But... what if something happened? I don't know that I could forgive myself if I accidentally hurt you.
Let the fact that I've lived this long assure you. Even if you were to hit me, I'd recover. That's a risk you must be willing to take.
[He was a soldier in his former life, someone who went out of his way to seek the front line and plunge headfirst into danger. If he had any fear of death, he wouldn't be draped in red, a symbol of the blood he's spilled more so than his military rank. He didn't become an ace without making the requisite sacrifices on the way up. That aside...]
...You'll have to trust that I would never allow for your hands to be stained with my blood. Ideally, you'll never have to know what it feels like to kill a man.
[That's all the more reason for Tsukasa to confront his fears— learning how to fight with a blade is simply the first step. With some competence behind him, he'll be able to learn how to disarm an opponent without taking their life in the process.]
[He looks disheartened even by the mention of killing someone, though he isn't as vocally horrified as he would be if not for the fact that they've already dealt with one murder, and someone else is going to die soon on top of that.
He swallows tightly.
Trust... that he won't hurt Nishi--that Nishi won't allow it to happen.
Trust is also a core, pivotal part of stage choreography. Trust in the choreography itself, trust in his fellow actors to know the choreography and perform it properly...
Trust them to be competent enough to handle it.
This feels like that, but the stakes are so much higher than bruises and banged up fingers.]
... Nishi-san, how did you learn to fight? Do you remember?
[He'd stick his neck out for Tsukasa and risk having it cut— that's the caliber of person Tsukasa is dealing with here. Still, Nishi can't fault him for hesitating. Accepting that fighting means pain, and sometimes death, should never come easily. Only those who've numbed themselves to others can swing at friend or foe alike without fear.
He tilts his head, sifting through his cloudy memory. Most of it comes to him in fragments, jagged pieces carried on the backs of nightmares... but he can still catch a glimpse of where it all began.]
My parents must have enrolled me in sword lessons when I was a young child. I must have been about your age when I joined the military... and if this uniform says anything, I made it as far as captain. But I doubt anyone remembers me for my sword work.
[Obvi! But that couldn't possibly be, seeing as giant fighting robots don't exist, but Nishi wants them to. He really, really wants mecha to be real...]
I must have been some sort of pilot, though the idea does bother me somewhat. In an ideal world, we wouldn't need a military. We wouldn't have to fight and kill each other over differing ideals. We'd be able to meet somewhere in the middle, evolve past the need for conflict, and be at peace with each other.
[...But.]
We don't live in an ideal world. I imagine that's no different where you come from, Tsukasa, or is your reality a peaceful one?
[But without mecha here, they'll have to make due with swords and whatever other pointy implements they can get their hands on. Alas...
Nishi stills, rapier brought back to rest against his shoulder. They'll resume when Tsukasa is ready, or maybe he'll want to call it good and take a rest for today. Either answer would be acceptable to Nishi.]
For your sake, I hope it stays that way. In the meantime... you can count on me to teach you what it takes to survive in a place like this, until it's time to return home.
[There will be a way out, else Nishi will carve one, but he leaves that unsaid.]
How are you feeling? Have you had enough practice for the day?
Until then, he just has to learn enough to be able to survive and look after himself.
... ... ... But he doesn't think he can do that today. Not on top of everything else. He knows he doesn't have time to waffle and faff about, but he just... needs some time.]
... Yes, for today, I think... it might be best to call it a day. But! Can we meet again tomorrow?
[Nishi nods, a thin smile on his lips. Truthfully, Nishi was hoping Tsukasa would take it easy for today and reconvene when he was centered and ready to devote himself to training again. He did quite well for his first day, mental roadblocks aside.]
Rest is a vital part of good practice, so be sure you take care of yourself today. Until tomorrow, Tsukasa!
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He takes a slow breath in, and then his shoulders slump properly. He wants to brag and boast that he's not, that he's not afraid of anything, but in truth--]
... It does. It... struck me that this blade is very real. I'm aware you're very skilled, of course! But... what if something happened? I don't know that I could forgive myself if I accidentally hurt you.
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[He was a soldier in his former life, someone who went out of his way to seek the front line and plunge headfirst into danger. If he had any fear of death, he wouldn't be draped in red, a symbol of the blood he's spilled more so than his military rank. He didn't become an ace without making the requisite sacrifices on the way up. That aside...]
...You'll have to trust that I would never allow for your hands to be stained with my blood. Ideally, you'll never have to know what it feels like to kill a man.
[That's all the more reason for Tsukasa to confront his fears— learning how to fight with a blade is simply the first step. With some competence behind him, he'll be able to learn how to disarm an opponent without taking their life in the process.]
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He swallows tightly.
Trust... that he won't hurt Nishi--that Nishi won't allow it to happen.
Trust is also a core, pivotal part of stage choreography. Trust in the choreography itself, trust in his fellow actors to know the choreography and perform it properly...
Trust them to be competent enough to handle it.
This feels like that, but the stakes are so much higher than bruises and banged up fingers.]
... Nishi-san, how did you learn to fight? Do you remember?
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He tilts his head, sifting through his cloudy memory. Most of it comes to him in fragments, jagged pieces carried on the backs of nightmares... but he can still catch a glimpse of where it all began.]
My parents must have enrolled me in sword lessons when I was a young child. I must have been about your age when I joined the military... and if this uniform says anything, I made it as far as captain. But I doubt anyone remembers me for my sword work.
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Tsukasa blinks at that, brow furrowed, staring down at the sword in his hand for a moment.
If he'd lived a life where instead of learning piano and creating shows from a young age, he learned piano and joined the military, then...
... What a completely different life Nishi has led.]
... Hm? No? What do you mean by that?
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[Obvi! But that couldn't possibly be, seeing as giant fighting robots don't exist, but Nishi wants them to. He really, really wants mecha to be real...]
I must have been some sort of pilot, though the idea does bother me somewhat. In an ideal world, we wouldn't need a military. We wouldn't have to fight and kill each other over differing ideals. We'd be able to meet somewhere in the middle, evolve past the need for conflict, and be at peace with each other.
[...But.]
We don't live in an ideal world. I imagine that's no different where you come from, Tsukasa, or is your reality a peaceful one?
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[.........]
So that's why you were talking about mecha before!
[Yes, obviously, Tsukasa.]
But... well, it may not be ideal, but my world is pretty peaceful.
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[But without mecha here, they'll have to make due with swords and whatever other pointy implements they can get their hands on. Alas...
Nishi stills, rapier brought back to rest against his shoulder. They'll resume when Tsukasa is ready, or maybe he'll want to call it good and take a rest for today. Either answer would be acceptable to Nishi.]
For your sake, I hope it stays that way. In the meantime... you can count on me to teach you what it takes to survive in a place like this, until it's time to return home.
[There will be a way out, else Nishi will carve one, but he leaves that unsaid.]
How are you feeling? Have you had enough practice for the day?
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Until then, he just has to learn enough to be able to survive and look after himself.
... ... ... But he doesn't think he can do that today. Not on top of everything else. He knows he doesn't have time to waffle and faff about, but he just... needs some time.]
... Yes, for today, I think... it might be best to call it a day. But! Can we meet again tomorrow?
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Rest is a vital part of good practice, so be sure you take care of yourself today. Until tomorrow, Tsukasa!
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[He pauses, looks down at the sword in his hand, and puts it back where he first got it from.
In this place, with what's happened already... he'd just be a risk to himself and others with a weapon he can barely bring himself to swing.]